(AKA: I Spoke Too Soon)
Remember a few weeks ago, when I said I was trying to get my life back to “normal” and was going to start blogging again? And remember how I only posted once after that?
It appears I spoke too soon.
I really wanted to get back to blogging. Over the course of the past year, I’ve come to really love writing about television. Aside from my best friend in the world, who lives hundreds of miles away and is knee-deep in doctorate work, I don’t know many other obsessive TV geeks (and she’s not nearly as crazy as me, either). I see my boyfriend’s eyes glaze over when I get all fangirly about shows I love, and I know he doesn’t understand how I can binge watch an entire series in a week. So this blog has been my outlet, my place to fangirl, the only way for me to express how awesome I think Liz Lemon is, how much Fringe broke my heart on a weekly basis, or how funny Schmidt and Nick Miller are.
Writing about TV, though, requires keeping your brain turned on while watching your favorite shows. Before my dad’s heart attack, I loved that feeling of being extra-engaged with a show, instead of just passively absorbing episode after episode. With everything going on in my life now, though, I need to just get lost in my favorite shows. I’m spending a possibly unhealthy amount of time curled up in my comfiest PJs, cuddled up with my favorite blanket, letting TV take me away from all the awfulness going on with my dad. When Bunheads whisks me away to Paradise for an hour every week, I forget about how terrible my dad looked the last time I visited. When the gang on New Girl play True American and make me laugh, I stop thinking about how much I miss being able to talk to my dad, especially now that it’s hockey season again. When Ron Swanson is…well, Ron Swanson on Parks and Recreation, I can turn off all the “what ifs” rattling around in my brain for just a little while.
Long story short – I don’t have it in me to blog right now. Not regularly, anyway. I’m not sure when I will. I may find myself randomly inspired by something here and there (I just binge-watched United States of Tara on Netflix and am feeling somewhat compelled to write about that), but aside from that, I can’t guarantee I’ll be posting much for a while. Not until life gets a little less…hard.
I’m still pretty active on Twitter, so follow me there if you want to talk TV in the meantime.
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